there's a monster in my house!

i finally did it. i brought him home. yeah, baby. i rockk x).

people, meet Morrie. the tuba. (dont ask me why i chose that name. yeah it's kinda gross but heys... i dunno...)^^ yepps i named him. it's a him. i decided that when i inherit the chio silver one (either one also can) it shall be a girl. the name shall come to me later.

gahh i pity the neighbours. they have to put up with me and Morrie for the next 3 weeks.

anyways i decided to bring Morrie home cos' mum kept complaining why i need to go down to the cor....blehbleh. i thought since she was from band she'd understand. apprently not. haizz

plus i consulted sm... she's done it before. and played in her house. so i can too. yeah.

i HATE playing in my hdb flat... it's TOO enclosed. man, it's wayy worse than the cor. but it's a small price to pay - my instru is just sitting there all day waiting for me to play it. lahh ><

ahh.... my educational life is a mess. i have no idea why im sitting in class anymore. i fell so drained. i KNOW i have eyebags. i feel them sag esp much during math and science (oh i wonder why). i am just like.... a clayey soil now.

i can't absorb. i have just shut off.

now all i am into in school is band.

that, is bad.

i actually have been considering doing something drastic. i think i should drop out of band. im really really messed up.

i really think i should drop out. now. and i'll come back next year when i have sorted everything out. no, IF.

i feel like im just gonna crack now. really.

i am just numb to everything. esp in class. the only thing that barely gets through is exam dates. yohh.

i need a break. [[take me to the bahamas, babyy!]]

no don't get me wrong. it's not that band is stressful. it's that.... it's a DISTRACTION. now it seems all i go to school for is the band cor. the people. the music.

which is B A D.

aarghh i just want to scream. i want to cry. but i shant.