nervous breakdown

really seriously. i think im gonna cry. the life has been drained out of me.

really. i cannot make it. SHE disillusioned us! and now we're behind! oh man oh man ... ...

i feel so stressed. at least syf is over. THANK GOD.
if it were this week or next week instead.... i will DIE. i'll probably slit my wrists. gahh....

i really don't think i can take this anymuch longer. i cant wait for this week to be over. and the next. and the next.

sec2 is your best year. for cca yes. for academics.... err.... i'll have to say a definite no. at least for this term lah, i suppose.

haiz. mum got mad at me just now because i had a miscommunication. i kept her waiting 15 minutes. and you know what?? just as i appeared at the gate, she drove off! (WHAT THE *TOOT*?) oh man i was SO upset i just sat down and cried.

well, but to save petrol she took a u-turn and came back... instead of driving all the way home.

gosh. im so.... man. im so upset.

i shall now take comfort in my imagination.

i'm going to imagine that everything is alright and everything is gonna be ok.
i'm going to imagine that i'm coping really well and my grades are SHIOK.
i'm going to imagine that our relationship is wonderful. great.
i'm going to imagine that i'm going to survive.

i'm going to imagine that i am happy.
and i'll continue this facade until i pick up the pieces and put them together again. until i can accept the fact and get over it.
until then, i shall imagine that i'm alright.